uncertainty redux

Dear internet,

I’ve been working on this blog since February 28, 2020.  Originally I started writing because it was my new year’s resolution, to write a little bit every day about my life.* I’d never kept a journal and it seemed like maybe I should.

Little did I know that the year of 2020 was going to be as crazy as it was.

The domain renewal is coming up in a scant six weeks or so. 42 bucks to renew.

I kind of feel like this blog has served its purpose. Clearly I did not write every day, which was my initial goal. But I did write a lot, even if most if it was just tap tap tapping out my thoughts into the keyboard. It was a good way to express how I was feeling in these uncertain times.**

Is it worth renewing the website? Probably not. It was fun while it was, and i guess I am done.



*Obviously, I procrastinated.  

**Aren’t all times uncertain, though? I mean in retrospect we know how things turned out, but we don’t know that in the present, do we?


Dear internet,

Being from the DC area is a strange thing because it’s a place built entirely on people moving here from elsewhere, often on a temporary basis. Striving, go-getting people.

What is the macro culture of the DC suburbs, of people who just happened to grow up here, who don’t identify at all with the work-forever-always-grinding lifestyle?

i was convinced there was a better world outside of DC. but after living in various not-DCs for years, i couldn’t shake that feeling that DC was awesome and I was a fool to have left the area.  There was just nothing like stepping off the plane at national and sashaying through the glass and yellow arches of the atrium, walking as fast as I could to le metro to whisk me back to civilization.



Why are stock prices spiraling upwards?

Dear internet,

I am troubled by the extremely high prices for stocks. Like it kept me up last night.

My lifestyle consists in not thinking at all about things much, then sometimes something snags a synapse in my brain and I can’t stop thinking about it until I have worked out an answer.

Why are stock prices spiraling upwards?

Back in November I started following the stock market because, we all need hobbies. I made an excel spreadsheet with stocks and then updated it. (yeah I know there’s software you can use but it’s my hobby, okay? You can buy sweaters pre-made at the store but some of us like to knit.*) by january, I noted with some chagrin that literally all the stocks I had considered buying, had increased.  By like 20, 30, 50 percent.

arrested development tobias fire sale
This blog needs more Arrested Development GIFs, obviously

At first I thought, man, maybe I’m like a financial genius. But I quickly dismissed that idea because s–, I can barely divide 100 by 20. I am, as I have stated before, semi-literate at best, and if there’s some kind of word for being functionally illiterate at numbers, I am that.

I wrote down those stocks just off the top of my head. It wasn’t based in analyzing sales or profits or anything. It was literally just me thinking, “maybe people are going to want to do X, let’s find the company that does X or supplies X, and watch their stock.”

I pored over the quarterly earnings conference call transcripts, SEC filings, , reading news stories that mention the company, read the SEC filings, checked out their glassdoor reviews because i have this theory that happy employees = a well-managed company…and literally nothing in a numerical sense made sense for the incredibly high stock prices.

How can a company’s stock go up so much more than it is currently earning, or is projected to earn?

arrested development gob and starla the business model
Meet Starla, the new business model

And yet the one company I thought was doing actually pretty fantastic, Company Y, the price is stagnant. Hasn’t gone anywhere.

I’m a contrarian, it’s my unfortunate nature. So i bought shares of Company Y.



*not me. Handicrafts hold no appeal. Back in the day women were expected to knit and sew and etc. tedious and oppressive



Dear internet,

yesterday babbo was listening to the radio from the Old Country and suddenly he said, “turn on CNN.”

JFC. I was in quite a lot of disbelief, seeing the capitol crawling with a mob of Internet Trolls in Real Life.

a boarded up cvs in dc
this is actually from pre-election boarding up, maybe it’s still boarded up but i haven’t been up there lately

we got the buzz on our phone that there was, yet again, another curfew in DC. 6pm to 7am.

we trudged outside for our afternoon walk. the atmosphere on the avenue was very “walking through a sketchy parking garage at night.” everyone on high alert.

i believe DC Porch Guy sums up how most of us feel.




Hold times

 Dear internet,

I am currently on (checks phone) minute 30:00 of hold.

I know, i know, calling a customer service line on the first business day of the new year, after a 4 day long holiday weekend, during a pandemic, of course the hold times are going to be looooong. And my business is not-exactly-urgent, but I like to get things done when I feel like doing them, so here I am, at minute 30:30.

And sure i should probably just hang up at this point, but the problem is once you’ve waited 30 min, you think, I’d better hold on a bit more, it’s already been 30 min, etc etc.

minute 34:37

but nobody could ever pick up! it could all be wasted time in the end.

I mean, the nice thing about my earpods is, I just pop them in and go about my day with the static-y hold music.

And yet, here in 2021, why are we still calling customer service lines and being put on hold forever?

delta airlines had this marvelous feature where you called, left a message, and they call you back. sure, maybe it was 2 or 4 hours later, but it was far preferable than being on hold forever and ever and having to make all kinds of calculations about whether it’s worth it to keep holding or not.

minute 36:45

sigh. le sigh. le gran sigh.



PS Update: phone finally answered at 42:43. It was worth it…i guess?